another story of him

so this is another story about him. but this time its a story btween him and him. yeap, he had many friends, but today he wants to talk about this particular friend. well, they knew each other when they were in primary school. they played together, eat together, and hung up frequently. when they entered secondary school, they were in the same class. he told his friend that they were really good friends, although some people didn't like his friend. but he never cared about him and vowed to be best friends forever. the excitement of being in a new school brought joy to these two friends, and one day his friend told him,"hey, lets become prefects together!!" he nodded showing that he agreed with his friend, as they had become prefects in their previous school. so he applied to be a prefect there. its kind of unusual because there were not many malay prefects in this chinese dominated school. plus, to be the only malay prefect in school, you must hold lots of responsibilities, especially on matters regarding the muslim society. he was surprised that his friend didn't applied for the position. his friend said and promised that he would get the appilacation form from the office by the end of the week, but he didn't do it. he was so outraged by him, calling him coward for not having the guts to become a prefect. so he decided that he was not going to talk to him again. at least for a day. then for a week. then for months. n then...until he was going to a boarding school. his other friends said that he shouldn't have done it because its like breaking silaturrahim among muslim brothers. he didn't bother at all. maybe its because of ego. but one thing for sure, he was glad that he's not going to see his friend anymore. unfortunately, his friend also had the same offer to the boarding school. and by that time he knew that maybe its time to say sorry to him. sorry for being too ego and stupid for letting a stupid matter to ruin their friendship. but he still didn't have the courage. not until after he finished form 5, he started to talk to him again. and that's only because they bumped into each other while buying things at a grocery shop. he's now safely studying in canada while his friend is still in a local university. the funny thing is, it took him about 5 years just to talk with him again. and that was because of ego. he learned that whatever happened, he should never cause friendship to be ruined. after all, he knew that he's not perfect, and he had to depend on others to carry on with his life. and yeap, he was grateful to be in good terms with his friend again...  

i just finished my exams and i have been tagged???

aisey...actually i wanted to write a story for this post...but since sumone was so 'generous' tagging me in her blog, i had to accept it. owh, there are 2 actually. haih...ok la...one tag at a time...

this one was tagged by kak fara aka akk ksygn paes! lol ari 2 die dh sdey coz i refused to do this tag.but since she said that i'm cute, i strngthen myself to do her a favour...haha

1) Do you think you’re hot ?
hoho u dont want to use that word here...there's only one person in ubc who can use this word and its shahrir!! lol

2) Upload your favourite picture of you! 
favourite la ni...x nmpk ke menonjol gamba tuuu??

3) Why do you like that picture ?
well, in the pic, its like me n sud were the only ones taking the pic, but we didnt notice that everybody was posing at the back....mengagumkan!!

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
owh...we had pizza a few days ago...then i remembered those who still didnt pay for the pizza that night...shahrir n asma...korg x bayar ak lagi...

5) The last song you listen to ?
ode by padi. lagu2 padi agk memberi kesan kpd ak lately. huhu

6) What are you doing right now besides this ?
laundry. sok nk kna kmas blk nk pndh umah...

7) What name would you prefer besides yours ?
umm...i still cant remember the name that i wanted the most before....but for now juz call me anjang dewata. lol

8) People to tag :
i dun want to tag anyone. but if i had to choose, i want to tag ain poyo!!!

by the way, she's my sis. best tol pgil org poyo ni. haha

the next one is by juwa. die ni mmg nk kna ngn ak ni. ish3

1. What's your ambition?

when i was small, i wanted to become a fireman. or maybe a painter. but being a student right now, i realize that i want to become an engineer who is very successful. owh, i also want to become a pro pes player. i want to travel around the world, meet new ppl and share my knowledge to build things there!! gile la pny ambition!!

2. Who is more important for you. friend or boy/girl friend?

i think the reason i stayed single until now is because i cherish friend more than a girlfriend. well, im not easy to fall in love u knoe...ececece =p

3. How often do you think of commiting suicide?
just recently, after receiving my lpi results, i was preparing myself to kill myself. but later came a news that surprised the whole ubc. x jd nk bunuh dri. but actually its not very often. maybe 2,3 times a yr perhaps?itu pon sbb MU kalah ngn team bodo...lol

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
sometimes i can lose my confidence. but when i have confidence, i can be so anoying. pdn muke!!!

5. How many babies do you want?

haha i rather ask this question to my future wife. i'm goin to ask her "berapa banyak anak yg awak mampu??" kah3. but for now 4 is just enough...

6. Favourite perfume/fragrance?
well, i dont really use fragrance/perfume....i'm the type of guy who believes that aroma bau-badan-sendiri adalah tanda kelakian sejati!!! lol

7. What's your goal for this year?
my goal this year is to get an xbox 360...sape nk support ak bli xbox???

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
i remembered that i once asked sumone this question before tp bile ek???

9. What's a perfect partner to you?-list 10
there's no 10. only 4 je.

kahwinlah perempuan itu kerana 4 perkara:

1. harta

2. keturunan

3. rupa

4. agama

with these, its perfect for me :)

10. What feeling do you love most?
being surprised with something unexpected. ak ni mudah terharu rupenye. huhu

11. What is your bad habit?
memangkah ckp org sampai die dh xmau idup dh. 

12. Is there anything you want to tell people that hates you? Is there?

u made the right decision to hate me.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

yeap2,like i said, friendship is more important in life after family. 

14. Describe yourself?

malas. korg bknnye xtau ak pon...

15. What do you crave the most currently?
holding an xbox controller in my hand, playing gears of wars 2 which is just released in canada...huhuhu

16. What's currently on your mind?
how to spend my holiday without engaging in any shopping activity. hahaha

17. What would you really like to do, like right now?

i want to eat. didnt had dinner today. lapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?

ak dh keje daaa

19. What do you hate the most?

org yg gedik. i remembered scolding my sis who tried to gedik2 with me. pdn muke ko!

20. Who else do you want to answer these?
i said already before this. ain poyo

study la woiii!

being in a country at the end of the world had made me feel that i always being ketinggalan zaman. its raye aidiladha already. and we just celebrated it, when all the people in malaysia juz finished their raye days. its just that, the feeling to greet people was not as excited as being at the other part of the world. yesterday i was surprised to get a message from mother telling me to get online. i was like "is something wrong at home??". but then i realized that it was raye already. in malaysia. haha. although i knoe that its too late now to wish, let me do it for the sake of being someone who cares(eceh)...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!! =)

so today we had our aidiladha prayer at the vancouver mosque. had our makan raye in timmy's(huhu so sad considering the fact that we had to substitute buns and soup with ketupat and rendang!!) and went home to study for our exams tomorrow. yeap, tomorrow i'll be starting my exam. so as my other friends here. would like to wish them all good luck for your coming and previous exams and go for success!! thanks for ur support. and also thanks for those who had the patience with me today. i knoe that i could be 'poyo' sometimes, kept blaming myself for some loss time.ahaaa...

GOOD LUCK!! =)

ayah mane jam ayah???

there's this one thing that keeps puzzling me until now:

di manakah jam aku???

i lost my watch. it was given by my father when i was in ASIS. i couldnt remember why he gave it to me but i think its because my previous watch broke down and i had to have another one ASAP at that time. so my father was so generous and he gave me one of his watches(dont worry, he has a full collection of watches in his drawer!!).

its rectangular in shape, with a gold coating on its sides. the strap was leathered, blue in colour. and i forgot already who made the watch huhu. its quite surprising that the watch was with me for quite a long time. compared to my brother, he keeps losing his and my father would scold him for not taking care of his things. in the end my father gave him a new one.

haha how i realized that i never lose my things. im grateful with what i have and i can keep them for a long time. very long time. yeap, i knoe that theyre just things, but this is my way to remember that person who gave me the watch. i took care my things juz like i took care of the people who gave them to me. i remembered my father asked why i didnt wear my watch wherever i went. well, its because...i only put it in my pockets!! haha i had a phone already so i relied to my phone whenever i wanted to check the time. but i still wear it when i went outside.

yesterday i decided to search my room(setelah hampir gila dibuat oleh econs n math!) for the watch. i looked everywhere; under the bed, on the bed, in the closet, in my coat, on the shelves, still nowhere to be found. haih...where did i put it? mybe its with asma, because she borrowed it when she was having a quiz months ago. but THAT was months ago. and she had already returned it to me. hmm mybe i left it in class? perhaps the surau? for sure its not in my room...huhu

ayah, mane jam ayah???

may u rest in peace...lol

if u fail, try try and try again

today i went ice skating at the ubc winter arena centre. this was the first time i woke up early for this week(yay!). i saw the sun rising, had a wonderful breakfast at timmy's and continued my lessons in ice skating...to my surprise, as soon as i stepped into the ice rink, i stood there without falling(wallaweh!!)! a big improvement for my not-so-hebat skills! haha

so i was skating and skating....and i was thinking about myself. considering that i fell for the most times in my life today, i realized that when i fell down, i had to get up.getting up in life is not easy too, same like getting up when u fell from skating, especially when u fell head first(ouch!!). u felt like ur in another world for a while(cuz the world is spinning around u lol!) and had to take some time to come back to reality. thats called muhasabah. u learned from ur mistakes. mybe its hard to swallow at first, but that was wat i learned during my times here. so i made a list of wat i thought on how to apply these things in our lives, about the need to learn from ur mistakes after u fall....

1. u failed ur exam before and u had to retake it. so u learned now that u hav to study and prepare for the upcoming exam. if during the last exam u prepared a day before the exam, now u shud start even earlier! best if u prepare 2 days before the exam!! haha its still earlier than before right?
2. when u knoe that u cannot answer a question from ur assignments, go and check the solutions!(u can mostly get them from the internet). then u knoe and learn how to do it and receive full marks for ur assignments!! yay!
3. u wake up quite late today. dont be sad coz u can always use the time u hav to stdy late at night! (based on some true experiences). the downside for this is u never get to see daylight haha
4. u heard that ur ultimate-die hard-favourite club lost last night. u learned that u cannot do anythin but went to a friends house and played pes until the next morning, fighting against the same team that beat ur club before. the moral of the story? nothin!!!
5. i cannot think of any interesting lessons to share now. its not necessary to follow all these lessons in life coz org yg bg nasihat ni pon xleh caye sgt!!! lol

ps: currently having a headache due to his fall while skating this morning. probably u guys can figure out why he was babbling so 'merepek'ly today.

kata2 org yg x sdar diri lagi....

yesterday was one of the most unproductive days in my life. i woke up at 1.30 pm, getting mamai for a few minutes, jln2 dlm umh snior for a while, then left to my room in totem. haih, i still remembered the night before when i came to fairview to take some muscular pain cream (my arm still hurts...huhu) from kak ina. in the end i spent the whole night playing pes (i knoe i'm weak..huhu) and slept after subuh. i didn't do anything much that day, not even to open a single book!!! i was feeling hopeless, x bermaya, unmotivated, rase nk marah je, n pape je r!!!

sorry to my friends who saw me not in the mood last night. i was behaving kinda annoying(mmg patut pon sebenarnye...haha). i didn't start my day with something good. and now its very late in the night. shud go to sleep and hope that i can wake up early tomorrow to go to timmy with sume org...(masih x sdar diri kna study tok finals ni...)

SOMEBODY KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO ME!!!!!!!!

canadian broo <3

~Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change~

Malcolm X

so, it's the end of the term. goin to the last classes of the week was fun. u got to pay ur last respect to ur instructors and TAs(although i kerap kali ponteng their classes lol).
anyway, it's study week now. it's time to get serious!! have to do well for the finals!! huhu

these past few weeks had been too hard for me. although i knoe that there are even tougher times ahead of me, i have to get up again. now recovered from recent mood breakdown(i'm juz exaggerating actly...hehe), i have to do somethin to make my life less miserable!!! but how did i raise myself up? hahaha here are some of the things that i did during these past few weeks...

maen2 kat library. the book stacks are killing me!!!

jmp beg naruto mse shopping kt metro town. cumil x??? =p

see????it's soooo cumiiiiiillllll!!!

feeding the swans in the lake...god they're hungry!!!

i think this is the most 'poyo'est pic ever that i put here. actly this is for mak in case she's reading this...rajinnye anak mak gi library malam2..lol

adik2 jgn ikut perangai abg yg kempunan mkn baked oyster ye...

eating sushi!! one is not enough. one more sushi please!!

okay2 we're not gays ahh...it's juz that...emm...umm...ahh....we're juz havin fun.....=)
current fav past time. i'm getting the hang of it!!!

bile dh stress mmg jd cmni....haih i hav to cut it some day... =s

spend like hours in winners waiting for the girls to shop. so i was also bz tryin the clothes around there...lol

bile ad kak fara pon dh terikut sikap suka-amek-gambar-sendri....kah3

hahaha i admit that i'm bulat rite now...so don't feed me yaa? lol
me with a little headgear!! notice it has a big mouth...
omg this songkok is sooooo tinggi! kak ina tunjuk pe tuh? cis!!

thanx to my lovely sis for this pic!!(muah2 uwekkk!) it's the tenuk that's been lost and fell into a drain. more info in my previous post...lol

darkness can't bind me forever. hopefully there's some light that penetrate through this darkness and free me from heading towards disaster....haha hepi stdying!! =p

p/s: the title canadian broo <3 was a tribute to my sis. ad ke ptt die ckp ak mat saleh skg...ish

La-Li-Lu-Le-Lo

La
omg!!!
i'm late for the 'wedding'!
got off from bed
reaching something to eat
cleaned myself up
barely caught the bus to downtown
and when i arrived there
i realized
i was the first to come!!! (cis!)

Li
today is a good day
the weather's fine
no rain
just wind(huhu)
met kak fara at the teresan
got something to eat(at last!)
watched the seniors play their football match
got some 'evil' tips to do this week's lab
ahh i felt very tired!
but it was worth it!

Lu
yesterday was a good day
although couldn't get enough sleep
and Man U didn't win that morning(huhu)
hey, what's to be sad about??
i'm not goin to bersedey!!
the atmosphere was very calming
no signs of rain yesterday
had to wake the other girls up
wei bangun2 tgk movie!!!

Le
last night was a good night
went downtown to watch twilight
the movie was quite good
then had to 'layan' the girls on their edward(lol)
his name was robert pattinson btw(haha)
enjoyed the night on the way home
got into my warm room
saw her on9
after all this while
said hi and had a chat
how r u? how's life?
and when i was about to sign out
she said
thanks for still remembering me...

Lo
what day is a good day?
actually
everyday's a good day!!!
it's just how you perceived it
start your day with something good
and may your day will always be good...

La-Li-Lu-Le-Lo
cheers!!! =)

the story of him and her

this is a story about two people; named him and her. they knew each other like any other ordinary people. and they were complete strangers at first. both were still studying but at different places and programmes. they contacted each other using all kinds of communication tools available. they also didn't care whether it's morning, day or night but they must hear from their 'friend' at least once a day. they seemed to know each other well and time goes by. she began to show that she cared him so much. she got jealous when he was close with another girl, and he noticed the change in her. they met in several occasions, trading stories of their lives and spending their times together. there were a lot to know now about each other. they even give words of encouragement whenever their friend was getting down. and by this time, people said that the friendship had matured into something more serious. he kept giving hope to her while she kept dreaming about the 'magic word' coming out from his mouth. but there was still fear though. she kept telling herself that she was not good enough for a guy who's going to pursue his studies overseas. she knew that she was not on the same par with him. on the other hand, he was a type of guy who didn't care about what she studied, how's her education level and what her family did for their living, as long that she's being herself. he came from a family who's very strict in everything; no hanging out during the nights, be an example for his siblings to follow, no excessive spending on things that he liked the most, and so on. although he knew about her feelings towards him, he remained silent and continued to give hope to her. he even said the sacred word that made the girl felt that he finally be hers at that time. but it was a mistake. he shouldn't had said those words since he never saw her more than a friend. he thought that he was not prepared to commit into something more serious because he had things that were more important than love. he's an ignorant guy who never actually think about what others felt about him. his friends were even mad at him for not jumping at the chance of a lifetime. still, he said that he must end this, before it became much more harder to contain. it was during their exams that they had a little quarrel about their relationship. she wanted assurance about what's going on between them while he didn't dare to give his words. he only said that he needed some time after the exam so that he could give her his answer. it was not very long until the exams were over and he had to confront her. although it was very hard, he had to say it. he knew that she would be devastated, but its better than never, when she was too attached to him. he said sorry, but he knew that it would never be enough. she couldn't take it. she asked why he gave her too much hope. he didn't reply, because it's too foolish to say that he was testing her. the friendship didn't go to the next level, but they remained friends until now. he hoped that she would find someone who is like him, or maybe better than him. he didn't know if he's going to regret what he did to her, but life must go on. for him and for her.

save our tenukkkkks!!!!!

Tapir sesat, takut jatuh longkang

KUALA SELANGOR: Taman Telaga Tujuh di sini semalam, kecoh apabila orang ramai berpusu-pusu datang melihat lebih dekat usaha kakitangan Jabatan Perlindungan Hidupan Liar dan Taman Negara (Perhilitan) menyelamatkan seekor tapir yang terjatuh dalam longkang.

Tapir itu dipercayai tersesat dan memasuki kawasan perumahan di situ kira-kira jam 1.30 pagi semalam dan menumpang tidur di garaj sebuah rumah penduduk.

Pemilik rumah yang hanya dikenali Gurubaran berkata, orang ramai mula datang ke pekarangan rumahnya sejak awal pagi untuk melihat haiwan yang dilindungi itu.ehadiran ramai pengunjung menyebabkan tapir itu ketakutan dan melarikan diri, tetapi terjatuh dan tersepit dalam longkang sehingga cedera hidung.

Kakitangan Perhilitan berjaya mengeluarkan haiwan itu dan menghantarnya ke Pusat Pengawasan Tapir di Sungai Dusun.

ps: di atas permintaan ramai, aku trpakse meletakkan artikel ni kt sni. lol

moving on

oh......
how i realized that i'm missing home sooooooo much! i chatted with my lil sister today.called my mum. they already had their year end holidays in malaysia. haha i also realized that i never noticed the time in malaysia...how time passed by without me knowing it! gudluk 2 hariz who's sitting for his repeat paper in A level this week and to afiq who i knew is sweating like hell now sitting for his SPM. haha....

these past few days were very hard for me. been a long time since i'd been so down like this. although it's not entirely because of football(MU lost to arsenal damn it!), a lot of things goin on through my mind lately. and i spent like the whole week tryin to find the answers to them.

huhu
penin
penat
konpius
soklan fizik yg sial!
angin vancouver hampir terbangkan ak!
with my bicycle lol
frust
tensen
lapo la pulak
not enough sleep
econs lyrix x siap lg??
choices!
worry
bangkit kembali
grateful
pes 2009! =p
empty

all my thoughts are listed here. mybe there's more actually...haha. well, my worries get ahead of me. i couldn't control it, and they definitely made me miserable. but somehow i think these things should be over at the end of the week. thanks to my friends who tried their very best to please me. to cheer me up. to worry about me. n to watever that they could do with me. thanks.

thanks again. hope this coming days will be much better than before. =)

just, give me time...

sometimes i feel like i'm useless.
everything i do, it seems like i'm not able to finish it.
sometimes i feel like i'm hopeless.
everywhere i go, i can't prevent myself from staring at nothingness.
and i am becoming less talkative with people around me.

is it a disease? i don't know.
is it normal? i also don't know.
am i going nuts? certainly not!

but one thing for sure,
i'm beginning to live one of the hardest parts of my life here.
it's not easy to get through this.
i'm in a totally dark room with no windows and holes to peek outside.
total emptiness. nothing. kosong. zero.

i wished i could rewind myself 3 years back.
i wouldn't had chosen to study overseas.
i wouldn't had stuffed myself with lots of work.
i wouldn't make my parents cried in the airport.
and i wouldn't had felt this miserable life!!
i just wanted to live normally, with simple life....

anyway, that's the price you had to pay to be here.
although i don't feel like going back now,
i'm not regretting it. i just had to get up.
biar merangkak. kemudian bertatih. kemudian berjalan. akhirnya berlari.
gunakan cara ape sekali pun. use a stick if u must.
so that u can go with the pace.
fight with the strongest.
outwit the smartest.
and survive this test.

i have fake smile. but it doesn't last that long.
soon someone would notice and asked if i'm okay.
yeah i'm good, i'm fine, and i'm cool were my usual replies.
but deep inside me, i don't want anyone to see me sad.
although i may be stubborn at times,
thanks for cheering me up.
u know who u are.

just, give me time...

i hate this!

1. MU lost to arsenal. yay for MU haters. sad for me.
2. juz got my lpi result last nyte. i didn't passed the test.shit.
3. 2 midterms this week. got to read all the thick books again.
4. hariz kept bugging me with the same question "weh bile ko pny hanset nk sampai umah?".

i hate this!

keBARANGKALIan...

while i was browsing through my leptop, i found this, made while i was in kmb...thought that i want to share it with u guys....

BARANGKALI...

Barangkali
Pada suatu hari
Seseorang mengetuk pintu rumah kita
Lalu kita membuka pintu tersebut
Dan mendapati Rasulullah s.a.w menziarah ke rumah kita.
Kita yang sangat gembira dan berbesar hati
Menjemput junjungan besar kita ke rumah.

Barangkali kita akan teringat
Mengenai cerita lucah yang sedang kita tonton di komputer
Lalu kita meminta izin untuk menyimpannya dahulu
Terlupa pula pada koleksi cd ‘XXX’ rated yang bertimbun di atas katil

Barangkali kita tersedar
Kita tidak mempunyai sejadah di rumah
Lalu kita mencari kain batik untuk dijadikan tikar sembahyang

Barangkali
kita juga terpaksa menyulap sebuah kamar
Untuk dijadikan tempat sembahyang

Barangkali
Kita akan mencabut poster-poster bintang bola sepak
Yang menghiasi rumah kita
Dan menggantikan dengan hiasan-hiasan ayat Al-Quran

Barangkali kita tersedar
Kakak kita tidak mempunyai koleksi pakaian yang sesuai
Untuk berjumpa dengan Rasulullah

Barangkali kita menyedari
Adik-adik kita tidak hafal zikir-zikir munajat
Tetapi ingat dalam kepala lagu Linkin Park dan Mawi

Barangkali kita malu
Keluarga kita leka di depan tv semasa azan berkumandang
Padahal orang-orang lain berpusu-pusu ke masjid

Barangkali kita terdiam
Jika Rasulullah bertanyakan nama imam
Yang bertugas di masjid berdekatan

Barangkali kita terkedu
Jika Rasulullah bertanyakan amalan-amalan kita semasa sihat
Barangkali kita tidak tertahan lagi
Jika Rasulullah menyoal
Tanggungjawab kita terhadap
Saudar-saudara Islam yang memerlukan

Setelah apa yang terjadi
Adakah kita masih tergamak
Untuk menjemput Rasulullah masuk ke rumah?
Ataupun dengan rasa berat hati
Akhiirnya kita terpaksa menolak kedatangan baginda?
Inilah HAKIKAT DIRI
Kita ini mudah alpa dan lemah....

Maafkan kami Ya Rasulullah
Ampunkanlah kami wahai Tuhan kami...

*faiz, u've been thinking too much. plz stick to wat u're supposed to do here...

sometimes i feel ashamed to see this...

hi again!!
today i'm gonna show u guys the places around UBC(yay!!)!! they have lots n lots of beautiful places but for this post i'm gonna show u the places which are related to my faculty: the applied science faculty(sorry guys, no nude beaches here =p).

we are, we are, we are the engineers
we can, we can, demolish forty beers
drink rum(drink rum), drink rum(drink rum)
drink rum and follow us
for we don't give a damn for any old man
who don't give a damn to us. hey!

this is the engineers chant. every engineers-wanna-be here have to know this chant or else they're gonna be thrown into a pool.to be a 'taiko' among engineering students here, u have to drink 40 glass of beers in the allotted time.if successful, then u'll be respected and recognized as the true engineer in UBC. there's also a council that organizes events during the year. the council that represents the 1st yr engineering students is called the PP's Council(originally called the ZZ's Council). kah3 lawak gile pny name!

well, here are some of the places that i encountered almost everyday:

the 1st building i see everyday. dat means having breakfast here coz they have tim horton's.yay!

hebb theatre. my physics class.the only place where i could see asma, myra, zul n the 'gurl'...haha ;p

my econs n math class in buchanan building. the most class i ponteng this term... huhu

the chemical engineering building. next yr i wanna go there!! insyaAllah...

and this is the cairn(i still dunno how to pronounce it properly lol), the proud symbol of the engineering students here. it's been here in ubc for many years now. i passed by this structure everyday while i cycled to class. and i'm very proud to be an engineering student here because this cairn symbolizes the appiled science faculty here. but! langit tidak selalu cerah and u can never expected to see beautiful things in life. sometimes when i cycled to class, i saw these:








i was like:"what happened to the cairn??" each week, there will be a new 'design' for the cairn. it was not done by the engineering students, but by other students from other faculties(looks like everybody wanna do pranks with us...huhu). it's been tarred, painted with new paintings, rammed by a car(but still stood proudly on the ground haha) and everything that ppl can think of when they wanted to sabotage us. the cairn will be painted back to its original paints a few days later though... sometimes i was ashamed with what i saw everyday, feeling that the engineers were never been respected here.. and i never felt ashamed to take its picture when i see new designs forthe cairn! lol

haihh....

haihh....

person: hi! what's ur name?
me: hi! i'm faiz, nice to meet u! =)
person: sory, what's ur name again?
me: it's faiz.
person: uh....fayes?
me: no no no. its FA-IZ! F-A-I-Z... :-c
person: ok...emm...uh...fayes?
me: never mind. juz call me fayes. =-<

i can still remember the days when i started my life as a student here. the people here do not know (or shud i say couldn't?) how to pronounce my name properly. huhu

haih...
my money's drying up faster than i expected. buying gundams made me enjoying my lavish spending even more. now i had to start eating less before the next allowance from MARA came, which is on february next year. huhu

haih...
can't still give up buying things from tim horton. at least now i successfully prevented myself from goin to starbucks! lol

haih...
why it's so hard to answer this math question?? damn!!

haih...
i miss everyone in malaysia...bile nk blk ni? hoho

haih...
the LPI test is juz around the corner. why i kept building gundam during my free times? ish3...

haih...
i knoe my family missed me. a lot. but every time i called home, everybody didn't want to talk to me except my mother. apakah ak ini abg yg sgt otai??

haih...
i did this post bcoz i was 'dipakse' oleh kak ina. she asked me one day,"updet la blog". haha ni la die weh!! cpt2 komen! =p

haih...
tomorrow i'm gonna skip my math or apsc klas juz to go to the 'all-u-can-eat sushi' place...haih...x sedar2 lagi asek ponteng klas je...

haih...
kenape la ak asek merungut ni...haihh...

my head's very tired
so i looked outside
i could see
the view from my room
it's autumn already
leaves are getting dry n yellow
squirrels are getting food for winter
the temperature's getting cooooler
and it's getting dark earlier


owh
it's autumn already
so beautiful...

a view from my room

where did jack come from???

midterm's over!!!! well, for this month at least... the last paper was applied science, a subject about programming in computer. i never expected the questions to be so tough! lookin at everybody's face, i could feel the frustration of some of the students who had never studied computer science before like me... but since it's the beginning of my weekend, i went to starbucks to buy the usual white chocolate mocha(lepas geram ni!!), then to the senior's houz in fairview.

like always, we do smthin at their houz, and tonight we decided to play the 'bluff' card game. it's a simple game where a stack of 52 cards is dealt to all of us sitting in a circle. the goal is to get rid of the cards in your hands. the first one to do that is the winner. here's how the game played:

• The object of the game is to get rid of all your cards as quickly as possible and you must be good at bluffing for this.
• Suppose you have only one ace but you want to take risk and get rid of two cards at once. Keep one ace and one any other card face down on the table and say ‘Two Aces’. If any player thinks that you are bluffing, he/she may challenge you and ask you to show the cards. If you have really bluffed, you will have to pick up all the cards in the discard pile and add it to their pack. Otherwise, they all go to other person’s pack.
• Next player may or may not have the aces. They may want to get rid of their aces (or just bluff their way through by saying that they are getting rid of their ace and take a risk of being challenged by playing another card) or may just say ‘Pass’, declaring that they don’t have an Ace.
• One may also bluff on number of cards, though it has greater risks of being challenged. This is that you may say that you are playing ‘Two Kings’ though you may actually add three cards to the pile of which two are kings and third one is another card from your pack. If no one catches you, even if you are challenged, you may show your two kings and let the challenger pick up the whole pile of cards for their pack.
• After everybody is done with aces, you may continue with kings, queens, jacks, tens and so on.
• The first person to get rid of all their cards is called the ‘Bluff Master’ and is the winner of the game!
• credits to http://www.thefoolsday.com/party-games/bluff-master.html for the methods. juz malas to write back the methods by myself... lol
  

so in the end, i won! haha but wait, this is not an ordinary win. i played my last card(a six) with the 3 sixes presented to me by sud(so i put 4 sixes to the table to win, kind of a 'cool' way of winning haha)....and this is what happened after i'd won:



so why the kecoh?
it's because everybody couldn't believe that i actually won the game! everybody had their own strategies to win as this was the 3rd time we played the game. it's hard to 'bluff' now because we're getting to know how each player played their game. while in the earlier round, i had only a card left in my hand. but it seemed that sud(the guy who's sitting right to my side in the video) had already known what was in my hand, so he put 3 sixes to me. he even told everybody on the table of what my single card would be. so i had to call for the cards(the 3 sixes) and put the 3 cards back on the table. as the cards in each hands getting lesser, all of us played safely so that no one would win the game. so in the next round sud had to call for the discarded cards and put back 3 sixes so that i couldn't win. realizing that i had no six in my hand(as i had discarded my 3 sixes in the previous round), he put back the 3 sixes he got from the pile. the only choice i had was to challenge him and take the 3 cards back. instead i put down my six from my hand, making it to be a complete set of sixes on the table.

everyone gasped. i won. they looked at the cards again, trying to analyze what everyone put during their turns. everything's fine, except that there's an odd jack in the discarded pile. that was what the video's about. who put jack in the first place? how come there're 3 sixes on the table while i also happened to have a six in my hand(everyone thought i had a bigger value card in my hand)? well, we thought shahrir (the guy sitting to the left of me) to be the culprit, giving 3 sixes onto the table. but he seemed honest and he's also not the one who put jack on the table. so the 'tuduh menuduh' goes on while sud was frustrated because he was the one who mis'analyzing' me!! haha until now i haven't told anybody about how i won the game but actually i was the one who put jack on the table in the previous round. after i got the 3 sixes, i put back 2 sixes and a jack on the table and said, "3 sixes". it was a risk of revealing my last card to everyone but hey, my bluff worked! so that's how i won the game. kah3 cool gile!!!! =p

tim horton's n starbuck, u made me...

GEMOKKKK!!!

huh, after raye arrived, i'd spent almost everyday stuffing on donuts, cookies, soups, sandwiches, mochas, hot chocs or lattes at these franchises. usually after class, i'd go to timmy as i passed it before arriving at my rez. so the 'objective before raye' to belasah timmy n starbucks, plus having open houses in vancouver had finally been realized and i can see the effects now. my face had gone bulat!!!!!!!!
i also had gained more weight after goin to the thanksgiving dinner at abg roy's house yesterday(thnx 2 kak ayu for her turkeys!! =) ). i found a weighing scale there and OMG(u knoe the rest)!!!! while a bit shocked, the freedom to eat now during the day made me membelasah every foods served. with the weather getting cold here, i cannot go out n jog or play sports(haiya). i wandered what's goin to happen after a few weeks here. mybe i'll get more bulat like my cousin who's pursuing her study in ireland right now. her face was so bulat (why am i repeating this word again?) that we in malaysia laughed out loud when we saw her face in fbook. pity2...

speaking of thanksgiving, i went to a malaysian fmily house yesterday for a thanksgiving dinner. finally i got the chance to eat turkey! yay =) !! you must be asking me: "how's the turkey taste like?" it tasted like chicken!!!! haha except that its big and a lot of stuffings inside. the campus looked empty as everybody's goin back to their family for the dinner. so its good to have one and gather at a malaysian house, eating halal turkey...

this is a turkey. actually there's 2 of them

melur's thinking: wat r u doin cameraman?!!

adam pon dtg!!! he's new here, so sile byk tnjuk ajr!!

berjamming slps mkn...
muka2 kekenyangan

later that night, we lepak at jehan's house playing cards while i went to the guy's house to play pes2008 with thuven, who was outplayed by me that nite(hahaha). everybody's happy and hoped we'll hav these games next week. we had to go back early becoz we are having our midterms this week. now its tyme to study....huhu

"save the cheerleader, save the world"

this fav quote was taken from the popular series "Heroes". now entering its third season, this hit series had drawn almost everyone in the world to be glued in front of their tv or laptops, waiting to see their favourite 'heroes' in action. it's been 4 episodes now aired in TVs around US and Canada, and i noticed that there is some things that quite familiar from the other previous seasons. let's check it out!!

1. early in each seasons we barely see peter petrelli in action (because he's trapped in sumthin or being lost, somewhere), thus making us to see eager to see the next episodes!
2. nathan petrelli 'dies' during the ends of seasons 1 and 2 only to be alive again at the beginning of the next season. weird huh?
3. sylar's still alive!!! somebody kill him!!!
4. there's a future teller in each season. the painter(season 1), the paintings left by the painter(season 2), the african who helped matt parkman who's lost in africa(season 3)

hoho this is just a part of the things i noticed, you can find more if you look closer! personally i found the 1st season to be the best, as i guess the 2nd season to be a bit boring. hopefully this new season can bring something exciting to be watched...huhu

the so called 'stylo'

hanging out with zul was very interesting yesterday. he's a senior here, but his easy going and approachable attitude made us feel he's easy to be talked with. it was raining that day and he asked me to join him for a lunch at the nearest mcD. me, being soaked and cold because i cycled all the way from the jumaat prayer hall just to get to the bank was not so reluctant enough to accept the invitation. the air was cold and i couldn't stand it. but sitting with this guy was awesome! sitting there while having a cup of hot chocolate(i had lunch already earlier), we talked mainly about...guess what? malaysians!

it's because we were talking about the attitude of the people here during the seasons that they had. and it seemed that what they did here would cause a trend among the people around the world, especially malaysians. the things that they wear will stir a lot of attention and touted as a fashion trend in malaysia. it became a 'style' that they should never been missed. a few of the 'styles' are hip-hop, skaters, faded jeans, punk, leather boots, etc. many young people follows what the west siders wear without realising the reason behind the 'trend'. they thought it was cool because the mat sallehs are actualy really cool, especially by trends set by the celebrities.

the truth is, do you know why they are wearing like that? do you know why skaters wear loose pants? its because they're using their skateboards to do jumps where in this place, people does not 'lol'ling skaters who fell while performing their tricks. what about the hip hoppers, who generally wear baggy pants and extra large size of hoodies? that's because in this place, its sjjjuuukkkk!!!! in fact, those hoodies are actually used to cover their heads during the rain(its raining almost everyday now in vancouver...huhu). remember the days when faded jeans is a must for everybody? mat sallehs here had worn out jeans because the air here is wet. the clothes get faded after a period of time as they gets wet when they go outside. this also applies to other attires too. haha wouldn't it funny to think that people buying worn out jeans(somtimes jeans that are being torn up!!!) from stores instead of buying a perfect one? it's because of 'style' man!! the leather boots worn by them is also to prevent water from wetting their feet(and god, its hard to put your feet into those things!-based on the experience of some of the friends here).

so have you realize why people come up with these trends? and we simply follow them because they're doing it? remember this: the mat sallehs have 4 seasons in their place, while we only have one climate which is hot and humid around the year. is it suitable to wear what they wear in malaysia? haha i'm not saying that we cannot follow them at all. just think about it. we have our own identity. why follow others? and where's the stylo in that?

i came out with this quote when i was in the TOK class back in KMB: they(mat sallehs) spend a lot of time and money to get their skin tanned. we also spend a lot of money and time to get our skin white.

see the relationship? we never appreciate what we have. we just want to follow others to satisfy ourselves. we see ourselves as imperfect but the people at the other side of the world are perfect. actually, they are no different than us. there's no perfection in the world. lol

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!! =P

CoVeR...

salam perantauan dari pelajar2 UBC. x boleh dapat di mane2
akhbar berita harian, utusan, kosmo, harakah atau yg seangkatan dengannya...lol

so, why blogger??
this all began after i read a post of one of the seniors here, kak ina, and i thought:"maybe i should start a new one, too". i want to 'kutuk' org jugak!!haha...well i already have one in fs, but let's try posting at a new place. =p
epilogue...
raye. the end of ramadhan. the celebration day for muslims around the world(canada beraye a bit late, huhu), the day that finally we can eat(jage ko tim horton! =p), the day i celebrate with friends alike, together, without families, kesyahduan kian terase.

i was surprised to receive a parcel from malaysia last night. in it was a letter from my mum. she said that i'll be a good son in canada(which i've always been lol) and hoped i'll be fine here. there were also some kuih raye, serunding, nasi himpit and a piece of kain sampin!! finally i can celebrate raye with complete baju melayu...huhu...but the kuih raye was very nice! made by mother, i could still feel the keenakan of it, thus i missed the days our siblings had to come home during a weekend of ramadhan just to make kuih raye with mum. so i took them to the senior's house, giving them a taste of what it's like to eat some homemade kuih raye...

the feeling of raye is not the same from what i felt in msia. even the muslims here didn't feel anything when it comes to eidulfitri. its just a day where they can finally eat during the day and going to the mosque. there's no relative visits(maybe there are, but not many), open feast, duit raye(my source of income in previous rayes), holidays(luckily i had only 1 class on the 1st raye) and so on. nevertheless, eid mubarak is celebrated peacefully and happily around here.

so, how do i celebrate raye?
firstly, upon playing game hantu at the senior house, i realized that i was alone to go back to my rez(kak fara and asma from the same rez left earlier). since it's already 2am, i didn't dare to go back home! so i decided to sleep there, staying up with kak ina who were busy preparing the dishes for raye(all other boys in the house were either pengsan in their rooms or doing their things). i was kinda late to prepare myself the next morning. we took a bus to broadway at 8++ am. the hope was there to perform solat aidilfitri in vancouver. but when we arrived, people were already reciting the doa and left the building! haha we just arrived there and pretended that we just left the mosque as well. i even got 5 bars of mars snack from one of the imams there! so then we went to tim horton for breakfast. a place that i always wanted to come since the first day i arrived here. since the place keeps closing at 7 pm in ubc, i didn't had the chance to try it.huhu(a note to mara students in UBC: ak dah rasmi tim horton dlu!!wakaka)

the day continues like every other day. we got to our classes like always. now i just finished and should be studying math right now(got a midterm exam tomorrow. instead of studying, i wrote a blog. ish3...) .

well, i had the chance to call my family on the morning of raye in malaysia. mmg syahdu gile r! i remembered a pic that my sis gave me after they had done the kuih raye. it's a pic of almond londons, with abg(abang) written on them.

ah! i really missed home!!!! they even 'tayang' me their baju raye!!

xpe2, this is just a challenge to the perantau like me.huhu..

lastly, i just want to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to all the muslims in the world. this raye will be much more different than before. i hope those who had the kad raye i sent will like it. i wanted to try something different this year. haha
ps - for those who didn't get it, i'm so sorry about that. maybe you're couldn't be reached or not in my mailing list....

so tonight, we're gonna have an open house at the senior's house. everybody's welcomed!!lots of things to see and share. ade game antu gak! =p