canadian broo <3

~Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change~

Malcolm X

so, it's the end of the term. goin to the last classes of the week was fun. u got to pay ur last respect to ur instructors and TAs(although i kerap kali ponteng their classes lol).
anyway, it's study week now. it's time to get serious!! have to do well for the finals!! huhu

these past few weeks had been too hard for me. although i knoe that there are even tougher times ahead of me, i have to get up again. now recovered from recent mood breakdown(i'm juz exaggerating actly...hehe), i have to do somethin to make my life less miserable!!! but how did i raise myself up? hahaha here are some of the things that i did during these past few weeks...

maen2 kat library. the book stacks are killing me!!!

jmp beg naruto mse shopping kt metro town. cumil x??? =p

see????it's soooo cumiiiiiillllll!!!

feeding the swans in the lake...god they're hungry!!!

i think this is the most 'poyo'est pic ever that i put here. actly this is for mak in case she's reading this...rajinnye anak mak gi library malam2..lol

adik2 jgn ikut perangai abg yg kempunan mkn baked oyster ye...

eating sushi!! one is not enough. one more sushi please!!

okay2 we're not gays ahh...it's juz that...emm...umm...ahh....we're juz havin fun.....=)
current fav past time. i'm getting the hang of it!!!

bile dh stress mmg jd cmni....haih i hav to cut it some day... =s

spend like hours in winners waiting for the girls to shop. so i was also bz tryin the clothes around there...lol

bile ad kak fara pon dh terikut sikap suka-amek-gambar-sendri....kah3

hahaha i admit that i'm bulat rite now...so don't feed me yaa? lol
me with a little headgear!! notice it has a big mouth...
omg this songkok is sooooo tinggi! kak ina tunjuk pe tuh? cis!!

thanx to my lovely sis for this pic!!(muah2 uwekkk!) it's the tenuk that's been lost and fell into a drain. more info in my previous post...lol

darkness can't bind me forever. hopefully there's some light that penetrate through this darkness and free me from heading towards disaster....haha hepi stdying!! =p

p/s: the title canadian broo <3 was a tribute to my sis. ad ke ptt die ckp ak mat saleh skg...ish

La-Li-Lu-Le-Lo

La
omg!!!
i'm late for the 'wedding'!
got off from bed
reaching something to eat
cleaned myself up
barely caught the bus to downtown
and when i arrived there
i realized
i was the first to come!!! (cis!)

Li
today is a good day
the weather's fine
no rain
just wind(huhu)
met kak fara at the teresan
got something to eat(at last!)
watched the seniors play their football match
got some 'evil' tips to do this week's lab
ahh i felt very tired!
but it was worth it!

Lu
yesterday was a good day
although couldn't get enough sleep
and Man U didn't win that morning(huhu)
hey, what's to be sad about??
i'm not goin to bersedey!!
the atmosphere was very calming
no signs of rain yesterday
had to wake the other girls up
wei bangun2 tgk movie!!!

Le
last night was a good night
went downtown to watch twilight
the movie was quite good
then had to 'layan' the girls on their edward(lol)
his name was robert pattinson btw(haha)
enjoyed the night on the way home
got into my warm room
saw her on9
after all this while
said hi and had a chat
how r u? how's life?
and when i was about to sign out
she said
thanks for still remembering me...

Lo
what day is a good day?
actually
everyday's a good day!!!
it's just how you perceived it
start your day with something good
and may your day will always be good...

La-Li-Lu-Le-Lo
cheers!!! =)

the story of him and her

this is a story about two people; named him and her. they knew each other like any other ordinary people. and they were complete strangers at first. both were still studying but at different places and programmes. they contacted each other using all kinds of communication tools available. they also didn't care whether it's morning, day or night but they must hear from their 'friend' at least once a day. they seemed to know each other well and time goes by. she began to show that she cared him so much. she got jealous when he was close with another girl, and he noticed the change in her. they met in several occasions, trading stories of their lives and spending their times together. there were a lot to know now about each other. they even give words of encouragement whenever their friend was getting down. and by this time, people said that the friendship had matured into something more serious. he kept giving hope to her while she kept dreaming about the 'magic word' coming out from his mouth. but there was still fear though. she kept telling herself that she was not good enough for a guy who's going to pursue his studies overseas. she knew that she was not on the same par with him. on the other hand, he was a type of guy who didn't care about what she studied, how's her education level and what her family did for their living, as long that she's being herself. he came from a family who's very strict in everything; no hanging out during the nights, be an example for his siblings to follow, no excessive spending on things that he liked the most, and so on. although he knew about her feelings towards him, he remained silent and continued to give hope to her. he even said the sacred word that made the girl felt that he finally be hers at that time. but it was a mistake. he shouldn't had said those words since he never saw her more than a friend. he thought that he was not prepared to commit into something more serious because he had things that were more important than love. he's an ignorant guy who never actually think about what others felt about him. his friends were even mad at him for not jumping at the chance of a lifetime. still, he said that he must end this, before it became much more harder to contain. it was during their exams that they had a little quarrel about their relationship. she wanted assurance about what's going on between them while he didn't dare to give his words. he only said that he needed some time after the exam so that he could give her his answer. it was not very long until the exams were over and he had to confront her. although it was very hard, he had to say it. he knew that she would be devastated, but its better than never, when she was too attached to him. he said sorry, but he knew that it would never be enough. she couldn't take it. she asked why he gave her too much hope. he didn't reply, because it's too foolish to say that he was testing her. the friendship didn't go to the next level, but they remained friends until now. he hoped that she would find someone who is like him, or maybe better than him. he didn't know if he's going to regret what he did to her, but life must go on. for him and for her.

save our tenukkkkks!!!!!

Tapir sesat, takut jatuh longkang

KUALA SELANGOR: Taman Telaga Tujuh di sini semalam, kecoh apabila orang ramai berpusu-pusu datang melihat lebih dekat usaha kakitangan Jabatan Perlindungan Hidupan Liar dan Taman Negara (Perhilitan) menyelamatkan seekor tapir yang terjatuh dalam longkang.

Tapir itu dipercayai tersesat dan memasuki kawasan perumahan di situ kira-kira jam 1.30 pagi semalam dan menumpang tidur di garaj sebuah rumah penduduk.

Pemilik rumah yang hanya dikenali Gurubaran berkata, orang ramai mula datang ke pekarangan rumahnya sejak awal pagi untuk melihat haiwan yang dilindungi itu.ehadiran ramai pengunjung menyebabkan tapir itu ketakutan dan melarikan diri, tetapi terjatuh dan tersepit dalam longkang sehingga cedera hidung.

Kakitangan Perhilitan berjaya mengeluarkan haiwan itu dan menghantarnya ke Pusat Pengawasan Tapir di Sungai Dusun.

ps: di atas permintaan ramai, aku trpakse meletakkan artikel ni kt sni. lol

moving on

oh......
how i realized that i'm missing home sooooooo much! i chatted with my lil sister today.called my mum. they already had their year end holidays in malaysia. haha i also realized that i never noticed the time in malaysia...how time passed by without me knowing it! gudluk 2 hariz who's sitting for his repeat paper in A level this week and to afiq who i knew is sweating like hell now sitting for his SPM. haha....

these past few days were very hard for me. been a long time since i'd been so down like this. although it's not entirely because of football(MU lost to arsenal damn it!), a lot of things goin on through my mind lately. and i spent like the whole week tryin to find the answers to them.

huhu
penin
penat
konpius
soklan fizik yg sial!
angin vancouver hampir terbangkan ak!
with my bicycle lol
frust
tensen
lapo la pulak
not enough sleep
econs lyrix x siap lg??
choices!
worry
bangkit kembali
grateful
pes 2009! =p
empty

all my thoughts are listed here. mybe there's more actually...haha. well, my worries get ahead of me. i couldn't control it, and they definitely made me miserable. but somehow i think these things should be over at the end of the week. thanks to my friends who tried their very best to please me. to cheer me up. to worry about me. n to watever that they could do with me. thanks.

thanks again. hope this coming days will be much better than before. =)

just, give me time...

sometimes i feel like i'm useless.
everything i do, it seems like i'm not able to finish it.
sometimes i feel like i'm hopeless.
everywhere i go, i can't prevent myself from staring at nothingness.
and i am becoming less talkative with people around me.

is it a disease? i don't know.
is it normal? i also don't know.
am i going nuts? certainly not!

but one thing for sure,
i'm beginning to live one of the hardest parts of my life here.
it's not easy to get through this.
i'm in a totally dark room with no windows and holes to peek outside.
total emptiness. nothing. kosong. zero.

i wished i could rewind myself 3 years back.
i wouldn't had chosen to study overseas.
i wouldn't had stuffed myself with lots of work.
i wouldn't make my parents cried in the airport.
and i wouldn't had felt this miserable life!!
i just wanted to live normally, with simple life....

anyway, that's the price you had to pay to be here.
although i don't feel like going back now,
i'm not regretting it. i just had to get up.
biar merangkak. kemudian bertatih. kemudian berjalan. akhirnya berlari.
gunakan cara ape sekali pun. use a stick if u must.
so that u can go with the pace.
fight with the strongest.
outwit the smartest.
and survive this test.

i have fake smile. but it doesn't last that long.
soon someone would notice and asked if i'm okay.
yeah i'm good, i'm fine, and i'm cool were my usual replies.
but deep inside me, i don't want anyone to see me sad.
although i may be stubborn at times,
thanks for cheering me up.
u know who u are.

just, give me time...

i hate this!

1. MU lost to arsenal. yay for MU haters. sad for me.
2. juz got my lpi result last nyte. i didn't passed the test.shit.
3. 2 midterms this week. got to read all the thick books again.
4. hariz kept bugging me with the same question "weh bile ko pny hanset nk sampai umah?".

i hate this!

keBARANGKALIan...

while i was browsing through my leptop, i found this, made while i was in kmb...thought that i want to share it with u guys....

BARANGKALI...

Barangkali
Pada suatu hari
Seseorang mengetuk pintu rumah kita
Lalu kita membuka pintu tersebut
Dan mendapati Rasulullah s.a.w menziarah ke rumah kita.
Kita yang sangat gembira dan berbesar hati
Menjemput junjungan besar kita ke rumah.

Barangkali kita akan teringat
Mengenai cerita lucah yang sedang kita tonton di komputer
Lalu kita meminta izin untuk menyimpannya dahulu
Terlupa pula pada koleksi cd ‘XXX’ rated yang bertimbun di atas katil

Barangkali kita tersedar
Kita tidak mempunyai sejadah di rumah
Lalu kita mencari kain batik untuk dijadikan tikar sembahyang

Barangkali
kita juga terpaksa menyulap sebuah kamar
Untuk dijadikan tempat sembahyang

Barangkali
Kita akan mencabut poster-poster bintang bola sepak
Yang menghiasi rumah kita
Dan menggantikan dengan hiasan-hiasan ayat Al-Quran

Barangkali kita tersedar
Kakak kita tidak mempunyai koleksi pakaian yang sesuai
Untuk berjumpa dengan Rasulullah

Barangkali kita menyedari
Adik-adik kita tidak hafal zikir-zikir munajat
Tetapi ingat dalam kepala lagu Linkin Park dan Mawi

Barangkali kita malu
Keluarga kita leka di depan tv semasa azan berkumandang
Padahal orang-orang lain berpusu-pusu ke masjid

Barangkali kita terdiam
Jika Rasulullah bertanyakan nama imam
Yang bertugas di masjid berdekatan

Barangkali kita terkedu
Jika Rasulullah bertanyakan amalan-amalan kita semasa sihat
Barangkali kita tidak tertahan lagi
Jika Rasulullah menyoal
Tanggungjawab kita terhadap
Saudar-saudara Islam yang memerlukan

Setelah apa yang terjadi
Adakah kita masih tergamak
Untuk menjemput Rasulullah masuk ke rumah?
Ataupun dengan rasa berat hati
Akhiirnya kita terpaksa menolak kedatangan baginda?
Inilah HAKIKAT DIRI
Kita ini mudah alpa dan lemah....

Maafkan kami Ya Rasulullah
Ampunkanlah kami wahai Tuhan kami...

*faiz, u've been thinking too much. plz stick to wat u're supposed to do here...