awesome

seriously, aku x tipu

ill stand by u

weve been together for quite a long time now

i could say that i understand u the most

weve been spending our times together

morning, day and night

cold and hot

we share a lot in common

making people say that

we couldnt live separately

maybe thats because i was so obsessed with u

so what?

u were important to me

but

as time goes by

i sensed sumthing else

the joy soon faded away

i didnt see u as special anymore

u were only the same

u never changed when i expected u to change

u dissappointed me

pretty badly

so

i decided

i went to search for someone else

someone that can give me pleasure

to be there when i am in need

to give what i want in life

and i thought

i was happy enough

it didnt take long for me that

i finally realized that

i was not happy

i was wrong

i felt sinned

my feelings were nothing without u

i shouldnt have neglected u

u brought a lot of happiness to me

happy memories

that i can cherish through my entire life

i know that ur not perfect

cause im not perfect either

i miss u

if u run

im gonna catch u

wait for me

goodbye fifa

welcome back pes!

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg!

someday

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

Now we wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it’s good to be someone

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

I don’t wanna wait
I just wanna know
I just wanna hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

‘Cuz maybe someday we’ll figure all this out
We’ll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just to feel better now
Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud
We’ll be better off somehow, someday

‘Cuz sometimes we don’t really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again

‘Cuz sometimes we don’t really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over, again

wont u take me where the street lights go?

i've sensed this feeling long, long ago
its a feeling of emptiness
caused by imperfectness
somehow existed in my own self
i realized this would happen again
after long ago
when i started this
when i first had this doubt 
i know that im different
very different
now its coming back again 

but i was too busy
yet neglecting my own self
pleasing others without thinking about myself
i need to record this
because i know i would soon forget this
for a sleep could easily sooth me
releasing all my doubts during that day

i know ive been disappointing
maybe its because of my arrogance
ignorance or just my plain stupidity
to understand
but i have my own principles
and i cannot give what other people can give

now i dont think the joy of gaming can cure me
like last time
cause it just makes me to run away from all my worries
soon i have to face it
whether i like it or not
i have to talk
and be given advices
those needed words of encouragement
and suddenly i realized
i miss those harsh, invigorating words
from people that i trust the most
its been a long time
im getting softer
huh

wanita

arini aku nak cakap pasal satu golongan yg spesel kat dunia ni
wanita
diorg ni mmg laen dari laki(duh)
diorg ni gak kirenye melengkapkan laki
seperti termaktubnye dlm Al-Quran
Allah terang2 menyebut kemuliaan yg ade pada wanita ni

bukan la aku nak membodek
tapi setelah melancarkan
2 minggu nur kasih back-to-back
aku telah terbuka minda mengenai wanita

so, pe kena mengenanye ngan mende ko nk cakap ni?

kirenye aku dah nampak la keindahan wanita tu
bknnye aku tak pernah perasan pon
cuma ia dpt digambarkan dgn jelas lagi la ngan cite ni
tak caye tgk la sendiri!

aku suke camne cite tu menerapkan unsur2 Islam dlmnye
mcm mane masyarakat mnyempurnakan tanggungjawab mereka
sebagai muslim
takde la nampak susah sgt nak ikut pon
and diorg2 dalam cite ni pon tak nmpak terbeban

of course la
ia hanya sekadar lakonan
tapi suasana tu leh dijadikan contoh
watak2 die pon leh tahan gak
cantik manis je bile pakai tudung

bagi aku
keindahan wanita itu terletak pada akhlak dan agamanye
tak perlu tunjuk rambut dan bermegah2
sebab takde sape yg nak tengok pon
lagipon mnde tu tak bawak ke kubur kan...
kalau pndai bawak agama
sampai bile2 pon selamat
semua org pon sayang

namun
kita tak dapat lari dari realiti
paparan sifat2 buruk wanita
walaupun enak dipandang
tapi isi hati lebih busuk dari bangkai

so
pengajarannye
wanita ni sangatlah istimewa
kalau tak jage dari sekarang
jangan menyesal di kemudian hari
mereka adalah permata
kalau tak digilap
mane nak dapat kilauannya?
terpulanglah bagaimana kite nak menggilapnye
asalkan
kite jumpe keredhaanNya
wallahhualam~

u're just as beautiful as u r
same goes to all of u =)

p/s: kenape org skg suke pakai stail tudung camtu? x sukeeeee

i think

it takes an illness for me to write a post
because when i'm ill
thats the only time i'm going to sit in one place
and i have time to look at myself

i would love to write these past few weeks
lots of things to be shared and told
but i was too busy
thus
these feelings could not be conveyed
but this time i'm going to write them down here:

i think
i've lost lots of things
things that i hold not too long ago
cause i was occupied with the unnecessaries

i think
i'm missing everything
cause i kept on delaying
things that matter to me

i think
the world goes too fast
cause when others are running
i'm still crawling at the starting line

i think
i let everyone down
cause i still dont know how to keep my mouth shut

i think
i've changed
making me unrecognizable by others
cause i'm not me anymore

i think
i'm ignorant
cause i don't think about others
and let people disappointed with me

i think
i'm all alone
cause i need everyone by my side

=(