the journey that sparked it all

during a long ride back home

"kau suke aku?"

just popped

now everytime i opened facebook

there's a reminder

"Your a______ with A___ E____ Tuesday"

it cracked me up a bit

pulp and paper i choose you!

january

will be on a field trip starting tomorrow.

kamloops, calgary, edmonton, jasper here we come

got an early birthday present from amira

very thoughtful

though i didnt think that was necessary

but i knew she worked very hard to get it

and i'll keep it no matter what

like how i kept all my other stuff dedicatedly

thanks luv

i really didnt want to go home

i think im gonna miss a big chunk of something important in vancouver this year
while everyone is celebrating hari raya in vancouver
im the only one who gets to spend it in malaysia
i know it sounds silly
who would want to spend raya away from home?
who wouldnt want to spend raya with his or her familiy?
well, they are my family too...a small one

call me selfish
call me greedy
a part of me says that i regret going back home
i had planned to spend the whole summer
to finish up my unfinished games
to walk around to see things and events
to try out new recipes so that my roommate would be proud of me
to send off sud at the airport. i couldnt be there when instead
he was the one who send me off to the airport a month ago
i never get the chance to say goodbye to gilbert
i dont know what happened to him until he's going to sidney now
but then i was called to go back home
and i dont know what else am i missing in vancouver!!!

another part of me says that i shouldnt regret
i got to see my family
i got to see my friends
i got to tell them how much i love vancouver
i got to tell them mat sallehs are really not bad after all
and i got to improve myself

i would say that i would swap this raya with a vancouver one
but to think it in a different view
i havent celebrated raya in malaysia for nearly 3 years
yeah
i should stop whining
i must be grateful with what i have
with everyone that i love all around me

hey!

i remembered the list of games that i made that i sooo wanted to play

i finished them all! 

oh jolly! 

im currently on a break from touching my ps3 

will begin my life as gamer again after my eastern canada trip 

until its time for me to study again this coming september

hopefully my chest xray for tb testing will come out good 

i dont want to stay in the hospital T_T

red dead redemption is a good game, no?

treasure hunting

i'm on a mission to find the greatest treasure in the world

....hope for the best 

emotions

i once believed that i had became a strong person 

because when i was little 

i always cried 

cried when i didnt get what i wanted

cried when i watched dramas 

cried when my digimon died 

cried when i was teased by friends 

i once vowed 

that from that point of my life

when i last cried 

i would never

ever 

cry again 

because i'm a guy 

because i thought this crying thing 

was for girls only 

it was hard to stay not crying 

i cried when i saw things 

or when i realized of something 

or when i was hurt 

or when i felt weak 

but it doesnt mean that i'm soft now 

its just that 

i found a way to let go 

all the worries 

all the problems 

to make myself relieved 

hey don't worry 

i don't do this often 

maybe once or twice every two years

its rare to see me get mad 

its even rarer to see the soft sides of me =)